I'm feeling College
Daily NeedsThis is, like, my second year going into college, and yet I'm just feeling the effects that is "COLLEGE LIFE".
I realized that in my first 2 semesters in college at DLS - College of St. Benilde. It had so much fun! I practically awaited every single day! I love my friends and they are the people I could relate too. I met so many interesting and fun people. I got to cosplay because of them. The facility was amazing and very interesting. It was like I was Alice in Wonderland. But that was it, I had fun and I loved every single bit of it. I felt like Alice and somehow, uncounciously, I beleive I did.
But like Alice, I had to wake up.
Waking up means not getting to enter my third semester with my friends and stopping with my cousin from going to college. I didn't regret that I had too, I know the reasons and I understand them. I didn't regret at all. I still don't regret it.
On June, I went to school at my cousin's university. St. Paul University Manila. It was where my mom graduated college. I was depressed for almost a month there. There were people who had the same interest as I, but they weren't like my friends at Benilde. I missed them alot. My only comfort was my with my cousin and best friend. We mostly ate and spent our free time together. She was depressed as well. When she ented back at St. Paul, she had to shift to a different course since she was an irregular student, like me, now. So she was missing her friends as well.
I was in negative mode for the majority of the year. It wasn't bad being irregular. It has it's perks, like getting to know the school, and socializing with the upper classmen. It was ok. It was also in St. Paul that I've been improving with my drawing skills, plus that fact that I was getting awknowlege by it.
I ain't bragging or boasting about, but the artistic skills of the students there are quite low. Sure, I've met some students who kick ass at drawing, but most of these students either are too busy to improve them or just think of it as a hobby and nothing more. So it kind of gave me the upper hand.
Another, is that I've been focusing more in my studies and became more active. I don't know why, but I just feel like I had to keeep myself busy. Unlike, when I was in Benilde, I just sat back and relaxed with my friends.
Sigh, is this really how it is? On one hand, I get to feel the pleasure and treat of college with my friends. While on the other hand, I become more realistic and focused with my studies. They both sound good. But am I really suppose to choose? No, I can't because I know that I'll be stuck in St. Paul until I graduate.
It's jus the matter of balancing my priorites. My friends and school work.
That's all that is and there is to it.
Hmmm...I do wonder. Is this really what they call the College life?
I leave with that question hanging. Hopefully I might answer that someday.
~Megu
Lonely
Lazy
